May 8th, 2011

Well, today went fairly well. I woke up in a good mood but had slept strange and so my neck hurt and I was really tired. The first couple of hours went by slowly but the rest went by fast.

I had one customer come through who was just very rude. She drove off before I could even ask her if she was finished, she didn't say she was. And so when she got to the window I asked her, politely, if next time she could stay at the box until I was done with her order. She began, loudly, ranting at me about how I shouldn't dictate what customers do and how she was done with her order and everything was correct on the screen and she kept asking me questions but then talking over me when I answered. I got so frustrated that I spoke back over her as well. She drove off and I slammed my window shut. She then proceeded to go to the next window and tell my manager that I had slammed the window in her face and that she was going to be calling. She can go fuck herself. She drove off before I slammed the window and she was the one being a total bitch. Excuse my language, but it's really frustrating when people act like children. Especially in front of their own children.

Anyway, I was feeling strange all day today and I've had the sneaking suspicion that I might be pregnant, so I swung by Meijer and picked up a test. It came out negative. I'm not really sure how I feel about that. I was almost hoping that I was. It would be a hard life but I think I'd be ok with it. I guess God knows best, though. If I had a baby I would have to quit school and move down to NC and find a new job down there with Chris. And then there's the whole process of telling my parents that I was sexually active before marriage and that I'm going to be a mom.

All well. Better/Worse luck next time? I don't know.

Anyway, I have a test in Microbiology on Tuesday. Really I should be studying, but I'm a little depressed. I know I won't be able to sleep even if I try, because I took a caffeine pill earlier and i don't think it's fully worm off. So I suppose I'll look over my notes a little. I wonder how this test is going to be. Holly says she hated this teacher because his tests were like Slacks, all over the place. I hope she's wrong. I can't take another class like that. uhg.

April 30th, 2011

Well, today has gone fairly well accept for one large set back. I convinced Chris to stay home from work the night before last and we laid around with each other all night. I was happy that he stayed. Yesterday we spent the entire day together driving around. We went to McDonalds for breakfast and then he took me to the mall where he bought me the Groom build-a-bear.

The lady at the build-a-bear asked me what grade I was in and I laughed and told her I was in college. She laughed and said she thought I was like 13. She also said that it was too bad I didn’t have my bride bear with me because they were having teddy bear weddings in honor of the royal couple.

We then went to Godiva and I bought us each a chocolate covered strawberry and Chris bought us each pop, he got a coke and I got a cherry coke and we sat in the food court talking about everything for an hour or so. After that we walked around the mall for a while and looked at different things. We looked around inside the Sworovski crystal store. He was excited because the items in there looked better than diamonds and they were a lot cheaper. He laughed and said now he could afford to get me jewelry. I glared at him.

He says he wants to buy one of their crystal cows and make a little circle cut out in the computer where the cow can go, with the blue lights behind it to make it glow. And when he comes up to MI in December, we’re going to go out and buy the auto paint to spray my computer hot pink.

Kara says she’s just going to send Mathew’s RAM with all of her stuff so that everything will get to Chris all at once. Matt said he would give the RAM to her at Dawn’s graduation party on Sunday and, hopefully Kara will mail it all Monday. Chris said he’s going to buy the video card for me but he’s going to ship it to me separately because he doesn’t want it breaking in the mail. He also said he’d help me pay for the motherboard. I don’t really want him too, but he just seems so excited about this. He’s all geeked out that he found a game that we both like to play a lot. Now I just need to figure out how I’m going to get that huge screen into my bedroom. I’ll ask Dad to help me go pick it up, once I get home.

Anyway, Chris and I left at 4 this morning to get to the airport. We stopped by McDonalds and got breakfast and he drove me around his work and showed it to me. We then went to the airport and I left for my terminal. I wish I had sat in the car a little longer. It was a very small terminal and I was an hour early and I just sat there watching this mother and her son who were sitting across from me. I got on the plain around 6am and we were prepared for take off, when one of the people who worked for the airport noticed that there was fluid leaking from one of the hydraulics so they had to call in a maintenance personnel.

It took nearly forty minutes for the mechanic to show up to our plane. We didn’t take off until after 7. By the time we got to Atlanta, it was 9:10, I had missed my flight by 10 minutes. They fitted me for a new flight to Detroit but now I have to sit around until 4:49 pm. I have a five hour layover here. I was thinking about buying Wi-fi, but I can’t really afford that right now. I have no money and I’ve been spending like I have. I spent the seventy dollars I had brought with me to NC. I bought Chris and his sister some Cold Stone since they had never had any, and I bought Chris and I McDonalds/Hardees on another day. And then there was the strawberries at the mall and McDonalds at the airport before I got to NC. I had to use my credit card on the strawberries.

OH, Chris also took me to an art depot in Raleigh. He bought me a .03 lead pencil and an eraser. I’ll have to think of something special to do for him. I’m not going to be seeing him until December, most likely. His mom offered me a job working with her and her parents, cleaning apartments. She said 8 dollars and hour. I told her if she gets enough jobs then to give me a call and I’ll come down and work for her for the two months I’m out of school. I hope she gets those jobs. I don’t want to wait eight months to see my baby.

I decided to go to Dawn’s graduation party. It’s tomorrow night at Bucco De Bepo (or something like that) with everyone else, like last time with Alex’s second birthday. I don’t have any money to buy her a gift, though. So I’ll try and make her a card when I get home and maybe make her a little beaded graduate doll. It’ll be nice to see all the kids again and maybe Kara will bring her new edition so I can finally meat him. His name is Mike, after his daddy.

April 27, 2011

Well, the past couple of nights have gone well. Chris and I did a lot of looking around and all we need now is a motherboard and processor, which usually come together. We have everything else we need. We have:
250GB Sata hard drive
many fans
lots of wires
a power source
a tower case
a huge-ass screen with built-in speakers
windows 7
3GB of RAM
a mouse
a key board
a disk drive
sound card
I ordered a graphics/video card
chris is taking care of the network card
blue cathodes
And we got all of this for 20 bucks! The motherboard he's looking at is an ASUS with a quad-core. :D I think I'm going to love this computer, especially if it's uber cheap. If the motherboard that kara has still works, we may not even have to buy that! Wouldn't that be wonderful!? a $2000 computer for $20! My mom would be proud! hahaha.

Anyway, only two and a half days until I have to go back home. I really don't want to go, and I still haven't found any place around here that will take me for 2 months this summer, which really sort of makes me sad, but what-ever, I guess I figured that would happen. I'm going to work my ass off this summer to try and make a dent in my credit card bills. I owe so much money and I keep hitting and going over my limit! I decided to keep the phone, because that's how I keep in contact with everyone at school. I canceled my subscription to instyle magazine and I need to figure out how to cancel my health insurance too, since I'm covered under mom and dad. But I'll figure that out when I get home.

My list of things to do when I get home are as follows:
Go through the crap in the corner of my room and get rid of stuff!
Go through the separator next to my bed and toss all the things I don't NEED.
Go through the separator in my closet and toss some stuff.
Clean out under my bed.
Put clothes away.
Figure out how I'm going to move everything around to fit that computer. I can't really move that desk because I need the plug that's next to it. I might be able to push my bed into that corner where all my crap is, there might JUST be enough space over there. Then I can put my desk up against that wall and get an extension cord to plug the computer in. I don't want to put it in front of the window because the screen's too big.

My goal is to pay off at least $1000 of my credit bill. All of my Master Card and some of my Visa. Also, I want to put aside $5-10 of each pay check for future stuff, like a trip to see Chris next summer. I'm not going to use my creedit cards. I have to go inside the bank to deposit my checks anyway so I'll just take some out while I'm there for gas and my piggy bank. Also, no more buying food. We have plenty at home! (Accept moutain dew, I will still be buying this!) I think if I pay 100 toward my cards every two weeks, or 50 from each pay check, I can come close to my goal by the end of the summer. I'll at least be able to get my master card paid off.

So here's my list of OTHER things to do:
1) cancel citi credit card
2) take Visa out of wallet
3) pay $50 a week toward master card
4) set aside $5-10 a week for trip to see Chris next summer
5) Begin taking $40 out of checks every week/two weeks as needed for gas.
6) SAVE LIKE A MO-FO!

April 25th 2011

Well, I made it through the semester with all Bs and one C. Ironicly I got the C in pathophysiology instead of in 250 like I thought I would. All well, as long as I passed I'm fine. I can't afford to repeat a semester, not with Chris waiting for me.

Speaking of Chris, I'm in North Carolina right now. It's been sunny and warn the entire time I've been here accept one cloudy day and I think the power went out for a couple of hours once. I was freaking out at the airport, though, because I had to catch as connector flight at the Atlanta airport hub, but luckily my plane arrived a half an hour early so I had plenty of time to get to my wing. And they changed wings so I was even closer to where I needed to be. It was all very convenient.

When I got to NC Chris picked me up, on his way home from work, I think. He told me Beth had flipped her car in a ditch on her way to school and she was in the hospital with a few cuts and bruises, nothing bad. Apparently she said the steering wheel just stopped working and she was swerving and flipped the car. Chris says her steering wheel had been having problems for a while but it was never anything major. Either way, now his mom wants him to buy her a new car. She says Beth will have to pay him back later but with the way she's spending her money, I doubt that. She just bought a new ukulele. Whatever floats her boat, I guess.

So Chris introduced me to a new games, called "Vindictus" and I actually like it a lot. :) I'm already on level 14 and it's only been two days! Unfortunately, it's too big of a file to fit on my laptop so I don't, currently, have any way of playing it when I get home. It's just so sad D:

Chris says he's going to build me a desktop though. We already have a case, a keyboard, a mouse and a hard drive. There's still a lot more pieces we need, though. But I'll be looking around for cheap ones. Right now I'm looking for a good, small monitor and a graphics card. We're going to start off small and work our way up to better things. We're both poor so getting the best stuff right now won't happen. It's going to be a while before it's all complete, though. All well.

Once we get it finished, though, I'm going to see if I can buy a new printer/scanner/copier. I sort of want to change the hardrive out on this computer but I don't want to loose everything I have. I might back up my computer onto my external and then switch the hard-drive out and reboot through that. Not sure if that'll work though. I might need to find a disk somewhere instead. My computer should walk me through the steps once I get some disks, though, no big deal. I have a 160gig hard-drive somewhere at home, unless I got rid of it already. I'll have to look around for it. I need to do more cleaning anyway. There;s so much stuff in there that I haven't looked at in years!

Right before I left for NC, I got a letter in the mail from collectors. they keep telling me that I owe U of M 250, but I already paid off the whole 350 that I owed them. So, when I get home I'm going to have to contact them somehow and figure out what's going on. I paid mom 900 of the 1000 she wanted. I wasn't expecting to have to pay that med bill right away. She and dad weren't too happy, because I owe them a lot of money. I'm not really sure what to do. :( I only make minimum wage.

Chris and I are going to go see if Lowe's Foods will accept me working for them for two months this summer and possibly 4 months next summer. I want to come and stay down here with Chris and everyone. It would be nice to be with him for a long period of time, and to get away from home for an extended period of time to see how well I deal with it. I'm still not sure about up and moving out of my parent's house in two years. I think it's going to be hard.

I have a long time before then, though.

anyway, right now I'm sitting here typing because i have nothing better to do. Chris is asleep because he had to work last night. The poor guy keeps waking up, though. I wonder what he and I will do today?

April 2nd, 2011

I found out that I hadn't received my tax returns because I typed my SSN in wrong. Wow. All well, I went back and fixed it nad i got my states back last night. Still waiting on my federal though, so I can pay mom and pay Chris back.

Speak of, Chris paid for my plane ticket to come down and see him :). I'm going to pay him back once I get my taxes back and I go down to see him. I told him not to take any time off work so that he could save up his time to come down for a couple of weeks in December. my mom invited him, how odd. I'm thinking about getting him an XBox 360 as a gift. We'll see how much money I have in the winter. Since I'm back at McDonalds, I don't make all that much money.

Speaking of the XBox, my dad went out and bought Call of Duty and him and Alex spend hours playing it. I find it funny and adorable to see how into it he gets.

Anyway, I'm only awake because I can't sleep. I figure I'll do some studying and stop by the gas station for a 5 hour energy before work, and maybe a mountain dew too. I'm going to die half way through the night. All well. It's only one day out of the week.

March 17th, 2011

I suppose I'm still getting used to it being 2011, since I seem to continuously put 2010 or 2009 by accident. I'll get used to it eventually, but probably not before the next new year.

Anyway, I've given up trying to write in an actual diary, because by the time I force myself to pick it up and write, I get bored and put it back down. And so, here I am, typing it all up instead.

I am still waiting to receive my tax returns from the IRS so that I can pay for my one class in the spring. It's going to cost approximately 1200 for one semester unless I go to Washtenaw, which is almost half the price. I'll need to make sure it transfers first, though. The last thing I want to do is pay 600 for a class only to find out i have to take it all over again because it didn't transfer. But I did find out, through one of my class mates, that you can apply to Washtenaw Community College as a guest student. So I might do that. On the other hand, if I do that then I won't be with my other class mates and so I won't have their help. I don't know, there are plusses and minuses on both sides. I'll probably just end up staying with Eastern.

My goal is to pay off my class and then pay my mom back for class this semester. Then, over the summer I'm going to save up my money to go on vacation with Chris, Holly and Steven next spring break. My mom and dad won't be happy about it, but I think a vacation will be nice after two years of nursing school. This stuff's hard! Although, maybe I won't go, because it might mean more if we go together in our last year of nursing instead. Speaking of our last year, I'm not going to be able to graduate with everyone else because I still have so many gen eds to get out of the way. I'm probably going to be going year-round next year and I'm going to try and take as many on-line classes as I can. I don't think I'll be able to add classes in with the other classes I'm taking for nursing, simply because I did that this semester and I had to have mom help me pay for it. So next semester it will just be the classes I have to take and then I'll take the rest over the summer.

I'm also concerned about the ATI tests that we have to take at the end of this semester. The practice tests alone are freaking me out with how specific they are! We have to take one in Med-Surg and one in Pharm. I need to study a lot more than I have so far. The more people talk about the NCLEX, the less I think I'm going to survive it!

No time to worry about that now, though. It's hard enough paying attention to what's at hand!

Anyway, I found a dress that I want to wear from a bridal website. I'm hoping to get the dress made by someone else because I can't afford a dress that's 300-400. I'm hoping to spend between 3000-4000 for the total wedding. I don't want a reception, although my mom doesn't like that idea, but neither Chris nor I want one. But, I suppose if we're having it out of state, we'll need to have one, just to make it worth it for people to come out here, get a hotel and what-not. I don't know, I guess we'll figure it out when we get there. I do want to start making invitations soon though. I want to make enough for everyone we know we want to invite right now, such as family. I can make then without the date and time on them and fill that out later and leave a space to put an engagement picture in.

The places that I'm thinking about having the wedding are either Mackinac Island or the Sara P. Gardens in NC, and possibly on the beach at the ocean. For now, though, Chris and I think we're just going to go to the court house and get married that way and save up for a wedding and, after a year or two, we'll have the actual wedding AND we'll already have the hardest part of the marriage over with. And by then, hopefully, we'll have enough money to go on a honey moon trip to Japan. Although, with current events going the way they are, that may not happen.

Just a week or so ago there was an earthquake in Japan that destroyed towns and the earthquake made a title wave that took out whole villages (10,000 missing in one village) and that title waves made two reactors at a nuclear power plant go amiss and now they're on the verge of exploding and they've been evacuating all the people and checking them all for radiation. It's scary over there right now. I told my mom that it's sad how we tried to help Haiti even though not as many people died, and yet we aren't doing anything for Japan. But my mom said that it's because Haiti was a 3rd world country and Japan is considered a 1st world country. I think that's shitty. Japan may not be hurting for money but they're sure as hell hurting for help. The news says that they're finding hundreds of bodies amongst the rubble washing up on shore and they don't have the man power to gather more than 18 a day. And the amount of sick and wounded just keeps going up as time goes by. I wish I had my degree already, I would go over there and try to help as best I could. I've always wanted to help people like that, people who are truly in need. You don't need to be poor to need help.

However, on the news yesterday they talked about three days after the disaster, workers heard crying from the rubble. They were confused but then, when the crying started again, they followed the sound and found a four month old baby in the wreckage. She was perfect, not even a scratch. Also, a man and his wife, who were helping the sick and wounded, gave birth to a perfect baby boy amongst the commotion. The man, a doctor, stopped only to help his wife through labor before going to help more people. And then there was a dog who ran up to the rescue workers and then lead them back to another wounded dog. It's just so sad to see a country that was already suffering, suffering even more. We all need to pray for them all.

The school is holding support gatherings here at Eastern but I'm working on the day they're having an information meeting. I won;t be able to go. I know that Beth and her group are holding a cupcake party in support. I wish I could do something, but currently I can't even take care of myself, let alone other people. All well, we will see how things work out.

Anyway, Katie has been doing an amazing job trying to loose weight. I forgot how much she said she's lost so far, but it's in the double digits. She's even started going to the gym with one of her friends (I don't remember if she said Dan or Ben.) And Laura's been loosing weight too. You can really see it on her. I'm glad to see them both worrying about their health. So much I can say for myself. I really need to learn to start exercising or at least doing SOMETHING. Even if I just start walking to work, I'm sure that would help a little. I was thinking about starting up the JM again. Wish I could afford a treadmill. I know it's not really worth the money, because I could just go outside and walk, but I like being indoors instead. Outdoors I would get bored and probably stop unless I had someone there with me walking (other than mom because we argue too much.) I might start going to Kensington during the summer after work. Alisa says she'll go with me when our schedules allow for it. That'll be nice. I can walk around the park and then spend some time sitting on the beach studying.

So I got home and I was all excited because everyone got home at once, until I got inside and realized that everyone had gone out to diner without me... again. I'm so sick of this. They spent most of my life telling me how I can't even stat eating without everyone being at the table, and now they can't even call and be like "hey Liz, you on your way home? We're going out to diner." Is that so much to ask? They haven't gone out to diner in months and STILL no one tells me they're going. They just bring me home their leftovers. w/e, guess I'm not hungry anyway.

So we have a test next week in Med-surg and my teacher doesn't know if she's making a study guide or not because some of the students railed on her for how bad it was. I told her I liked it and that they can suck it. Anyway, I'm going to go make note cards for that. no more typing!